AN OLD STORY

An Old Story

There were days I hated myself

Days I wept for a lost child

Drinking long into the night

dancing on the edge of wild

-Strangers, I embraced

Friends, came and went

What little money made

we carelessly had spent

-These times I looked around

with all the money gone

I could not find a friend

I was utterly alone

-Two people lived within

One, full of laughter and fun

One blinded with pain

from what others had done

-So deeper and deeper

the hole for myself grew

A monster void of feeling

was all my family knew

-Release, I feared impossible

Money, friends, family, all thrown away

How I got to church that night

I really couldn’t say

-There, an old story I heard

I sat glued to the seat

His every word seemed to stab

and my dead heart began to beat

-Swimming with tears

my eyes took in the scene

People accepting Jesus

in return, he washed them clean

-My body ached to step forward

Inside the voices declared war

Each pulling in a direction

urging me to choose their door

-One door was old and worn

Familiar, the voice echoed to me

The other, shiny and new

So bright I could hardly see

– As I stood between life’s realm

I looked longingly twords life’s past

Then I heard the preacher say,

“It will never last”

-Turning to Jesus

I let it all out

This time, I had found real happiness

without ANY doubt.

©Written By Serena Ellison

Writers Note: I was raised in church all my life… I have ALWAYS had a deep connection with church and when I quit church I had no illusions of where I would go.. I KNEW I was hell bound and it scared me to death.. yet my life was going down the wrong path and fast. The three year period I spent in sin at a young age.. 18-20 years old.. I was drinking before I was even old enough..  I remember finally celebrating my 21st birthday, no need to go to a bar this time, I was SAVED.  I got the HOLY GHOST and never went back.. Although I would love to turn back time and fix my mistakes. I have learned that who I am today and the faith I have is much deeper much stronger all because of where my Jesus has brought me from. He showed me his mercy and grace is for EVERYONE… mistakes and all.. he loves me. He always did.